March 19th, 2006
There are honestly some days that I wish I was home, other days I wish I was away. Thinking back on my spring break, I spent it at home. Bored out of my mind. Got no studying done. Not that I’m getting any done right now. It just pisses me off to see my father drinking his life away like he does. Everyday that I’ve been home over break he would come home sober, then drink the whole night away. After becoming immersed in the state of mind he’ll yell and scream at everything, even himself. But for this break, he mostly yelled at me because I was there. He might be a good guy when he’s sober, an asshole when he’s drunk, but he’s my father. So far he’s never gotten up and whacked me or anyone a shot in that state of mind, but I fear it’s going to happen one day.
Aside from being yelled at by my dad, I observed my brother. He turns 16 in April, so you know what that means–he gets his permit. I wonder if this is good or bad. In the video game world you see him get very angry, often violent when playing games like GTA four million. My parents notice this, and they are very wary of him driving. They made a joke about giving him my car (which I paid for, yes, sad, I know), and getting me a new one for shits and giggles. He stood up abruptly and said, “I hate American cars, I hate Jonathan’s Camaro. That think really sucks.” Seconds later he left the table, slammed the door to his room, and locked it.
I’m telling you, my parents are going to have to remove the lock on that door when they finish the house. Thinking about that some more. The house is said to be done in mid-May. Hopefully.
Apparently, my parents are still being sued by the dumbass framer.
I think that’s all. I really should be studying for the Mechanics exam that’s on Tuesday… doing work for Calc4, and Astrophysics… but oh well…
I bought MacGyver season 5 on DVD the other day… so you know what that means. I’ve made it through the first 3 disc’s and it seems that this season is populated with Asians. Lots of Asian females. Cute to boot.
PS. CyborgCompy <3
March 11th, 2006
This is just a short little thread on what my life in the apartment is like. If you follow this link you’ll see how my wonderful roommate loves to live his life. I warn you not to be eating anything or thinking about eating.
March 10th, 2006
Sometimes I wonder how life is supposed to work. Spring break officially started yesterday at 4:30 for me. A massive amount of work to do over break too. What am I doing? Sitting here in my dorm half-ass naked listening to Milk and Cereal on repeat. I should really be going home because my mom left with her cousin to go down to Florida for the week. This leaves me at home to baby sit my brother and sister for an entire week. My dad will still be come, but you know how he gets. In some ways he is a big baby when his wonderful wife leaves to go do something for herself.
Death
I also keep forgetting that I have to go for blood work. My heart condition is getting increasingly worse; more than the doctors were anticipating. Yeah for me. I can suspect a 5 year shelf-life, or I can be like my grandmother and have wires in my chest… and hurt every time someone decides to go over a bump in the car. It makes me sad to think about it because I seen how my grandmother was after the operation. She must have been bed-stricken for nearly a month after the fact. It wasn’t until recently that she just started to get up and about. Oh well, keep a mind out there when I go for the tests this Wednesday.
Girls
On anther note, girls annoy the bloody shit out of me. First I get called ugly by a 300 pound girl; another girl decides she doesn’t want to stop talking to me claiming I like her friend. I did like a girl a while back, but she got a boyfriend, so fuck that shit. Oh yeah “come over to her place!” No. She didn’t tell me to come, so I’ll be a 5th wheel. There I said it.
I can’t wait to blow my fucking brains out. Not to be emo, but my life sucks.
Modeling
I’m still trying to figure out why I let Barry’s cut my hair for this modeling thing. I miss my long fucking hair that I had. I feel so bald now without hair that went below my jaw. I do have to say that I’m pleased with the way the color of the hair came out.
March 3rd, 2006
Okay, so went down the list of things to do today. So far it’s heading out pretty good. I called Maxtor about the replacement, go that settled. Called UPS to find out what the hell is up with my Spire case.
Now, that is something interesting. UPS picked up the case and delivered it the wrong people. Literally. This tracking number belongs to neither Spire Coolers nor 3D Cool. Where the hell did they ship this piece of shit off too? All I wanted was a replacement for a UPS damaged case. Now, I have the run around in dealing with shit.
On the lighter side of things, my order of Beast Wars the first complete season 1 DVD came in at Borders today. Only 100 sealed factory copies left in the world. Well, make that 99 now.
Aside from Beast Wars, I sent out my portfolio to various companies in hope of getting a job outside the tux business; such names as Abercrombie & Finch, and Express for Men. Naming just a few here. I sent my portfolio out to I don’t know… round about 5 different companies for shits and giggles.
Going back down to the bad again: My family still has some problems. Recently found out my mother has cancer occurring around her lower back area and around her spine.
To top that off, I just spoke with her and she’s waiting in the lawyers’ office right now because the contractor we hired abandoned the job, but now wants the money he was promised upon completion. Well, guess what buddy, you left the job mid-fight to go fishing, never came back, therefore you get no money. Fuck you! If my parents lose this case it will prove the judicial system we have in our system is truly flawed.
I ask: Would you pay a contractor to do the framing on your house if he left the job for 3 or more weeks, without notice, to go fishing? He was already paid half of what was offered, as is required by the state of New Jersey. Now, he’s just being greedy. Wanting all of what he was supposed to get IF he finished the job. He didn’t, therefore, I say he doesn’t get the money. Do you agree? Comment Please.
March 3rd, 2006
I’m convinced that Maxtor does not want me to have a 250G or smaller. The second RMA drive from Maxtor bit the dust in 3 days. What kind of shit is that? So that makes 1 retail drive from them, and 2 RMA drives that I’ve received from them in the last 2 weeks. What kind of shit are they making? Seagate bitch! Nothing more, nothing less.