Down alone with nothing on my mind. I wish I didn’t have a brain to think about all the possibilities of life. It is purely to complex for me to comprehend. I can’t even master English grammar half the time.
Last night I had the most disturbing dream. It made me feel like everything I have come to enjoy in life will come to end tonight, tomorrow, or someday. I don’t know. The dream made me feel all alone with nothing to look forward to anymore. Maybe that’s why I left, maybe that’s why I woke up, and maybe that’s why I’m here. Seriously, I wish these nightmares would end. I don’t like running anymore, I don’t like violence, I don’t like having to defend what should automatically be protected. Maybe I’m the one causing all the problems, and to solve the problem I should just leave and never be seen again. Then, and only then, will my nightmares stop. They will stop because I’ve stopped thinking about all the possibilities of today, tomorrow, and life in general.
So here I am, alone. Thankfully. Out of all this I feel like I suffocate people. Hampering them in their way of life. I don’t want to do that to anyone. I rather leave and see them go out and have a good time doing whatever. I don’t want to be in the way. I dont want to hold them back. I dont want to stop them.
:'( I HATE NIGHTMARES